Rewards or punishments, which work better? There's that striped list. That striped list looks like a few simple words scribbled in a row. It is. But it is part coach, part reminder, part collaboration partner to get me where I want to go. I am growing very fond of it. Could be because, in spite of everything that threatens to distract, I am plowing through it. Now should I let the fact that it has taken me more than one week trouble me, or should I celebrate that it is actually getting done now?
I took a huge long look at my master list on this painting series weeks ago. It's pretty big. Daunting really. I used to work one piece at a time. That wasn't going to work for the challenge before me so I tweaked a bit. Thought just maybe I would work everything through the development stages together. I decided to bring multiple working concepts up at the same time, get everything into flow at once. Lots of scissors, glue, drawing, studies, experimentation. And you know what. I like it. I worked a little out of order on this striped list this week, and I still have some things to do, but it is more done than not done. And I can actually see tangible progress in what I promised I would do on my master list on the series. So the striped list with the numbers, the striped list is a keeper.
Oh, the work still looks and feels a bit like chaos, like that oil paint I am playing in with that rag. I have tons more to do all round. But inside, it feels like spring. Ideas and concepts, ways of approach are bubbling, gurgling to the top. And THAT feels good. I know where I want the work to be within a month. That deadline is real. I have lots and lots of questions, lots of yet unknowns, but here's the one thing I do know: I can feel it getting there. It feels fresher, more alive. The goal I set out was not just to get x number of pieces done, it was to get x number of pieces done with a difference. So that little list is doing its job.
Now reward or punishment? Which is the way to go? I am thinking those cookies are looking pretty good.
Thursday, September 25, 2008
Posted by Janice C. Cartier at 5:49 AM